One thing I haven't talked a lot about is being the mother of twins; non-identical girl twins. When I was laying on the table at my 17 week appointment, in the ultrasound room, and the tech told us she saw two heads. My first worry was if the heads were connected. They were not. Lynn and I soon decided we'd better find out if they were girls, boys, or one of each. The tech soon informed us they were girls. Lynn promptly sighed, ran his hand down his face and said, "What are we going to do when one of them gets asked to the prom and the other doesn't?" He didn't know how prophetic that comment would be for the girls.
Ever since I first saw them lying in their incubators it has been a battle of balancing fairness, feelings and making sure they both feel loved. Incidentally I cried, because one baby was perfect and unblemished and the other had a dent in her forehead and nasty bruises everywhere from paving the way out.
I am constantly making decisions of intervening or letting things play out as they will. On MAP (Missouri's big grade level tests) one scored advanced in reading and math and the other advanced in reading and proficient in math. One was tested for gifted and talented, the other was not. Now, they've both taken an algebra placement test and one got into algebra and the other has to take pre-algebra. I have to fight the urge to email the principal to let the left out twin test because her sister did, or to retest because she barely missed the cutoff.
They're both up to be library aides and we haven't heard if they both made it. Heaven help us if one makes it and the other doesn't.
I have to keep telling myself they are individuals. It's OK if one of them succeeds in an area the other does not.
Luckily they are different enough most thing balance out. One is a cheerleader. One plays volleyball. Luckily they have no interest in competing in the other's sport. One plays a flute and the other plays percussion. They are content to let each other succeed in their own thing.
Abby and Elise
Abby during volleyball season
Elise on her way to cheer at a football game
Mothering twins is a fine balance act between compassion, allowing individualism and telling them this is life.
So now I think...what am I going to do when one of them gets asked to the prom and the other doesn't?
It's a good thing I have a big lap and they can both fit. :)